Hi, it's been a long time since my last post. It's not that I've abandoned this blog but I'm just too busy and lazy! Since End of Year Exam is over now, I shall sit down and reassemble my pieces of thoughts of the past few months. Many things have happened and I was like wanna to cry everytime when I felt wronged. Life is going busy for nothing. i always felt it this way. It seems that there is an empty patch on my heart that can never be filled. Lonely, and lonely is all I feel when I am being myself. I dislike myself to be so vulnerable and sensitive; I hate myself to be so nostalgic. Thinking of the pasts is one way to relieve my pain when I encountered setbacks or felt rather hard done by. Sigh, memory is such a sweet sorrow. I always ask myself, " Am I stupid?" WHy am I always clinging to the past when everything is so different nowadays? Why do I like to think of the impossibilities to be possible? Why am I torturing myself in such a ridiculous way. Everything is changing, including ones that I am once familiar with. The sense of being deserted is so strong that it nearly suffocate me.
But, who should I blame on? It's no other than me, myself...
I am the one who causes so much pain on myself, i'm the one who cannot let go ...
I must learn to look forward and strive for better future!
